Tuesday, April 12, 2011

The waiting room...again

We are in process...process of waiting. But now we are waiting with an expectant hope that things can only get better for us. Life is new, exciting, challenging and oh so very hopeful . My mind races constantly on different ways to "fix" things for our family. But I can't even begin to imagine what great things our Daddy has in store for us...we just have to realize what gifts He has placed inside of us, own it and run with it. I think for too long in my life I have always had a passion to strive to do so much and quite frankly I don't do it. I am so fed up with living that way. I don't want to be a wife, mom, woman who just wanders meaninglessly...I want to be a woman of purpose, vision..His purpose, His vision and then execute that with the utmost precision!
It is almost exhausting thinking about all of the thoughts, plans and ideas I have spinning so frequently in my mind. TJ always knows when I'm way too deep in thought and shows me so much grace when I am unable to verbalize what's really going on. This is almost like my outlet...writing...I know at times it doesn't make one bit of sense...but it's my thoughts, it's how I feel and how I need God to speak to me so desperately... to be continued